Be

There is always a but

There is ever a never

Billion thoughts

Just a second 

Tell again

I can't reckon

When was the last time I lived

when was the air easy to breathe 

when was my happy ending so near

when will this life reappear?

Only a third 

Above the spine 

Can't you relate

How to survive 

Bring me relief

Sing me away

Hold me so tight

Lead me to death 

When was the last time I felt 

Joy without regret 

When was the last time I dared 

To not care away 

Sustain but obtain

Not tolerate 

Life is much more 

Than grieving the fate 

When was the last time I chose

To put myself first

Is it ever possible

To only "be"