See what you have, not what you don't.

Did you ever feel like you are a piece of paper that everyone can step on it? I did. There's this photoshoot, I know it's ridiculous but I want to be the lucky girl who goes to it, but there are a lot of more beautiful girls than me and I, sometimes, feel like I am less. I feel like nobody cares about me, nobody pays attention, nobody worries. I don't like to feel like that because I know I should be grateful about having everything I have, but in these days I have the right to get depreseed. We are all humans and we just can't be smiling everytime. But try to do it the most of it. There's this guy also who likes me I told you. I talked to him that I didn't like him back but he already built walls and he told me that he can make me change my mind,.... but I don't believe it and I'm afraid he could. Anyways see what you have not what you don't.
-Maggie

Days

There are some days when you feel hurt, you don't feel happy at all... and you are sleepy. Some days when you start thinking... what if? Or start accuulating all your problems and even wanting to cry. There are days when somebody tells you "stupid" or something that wouldn't mind in other days that gets you down. I don't like that days because I don't find the reason I feel like shit HAHA it's like if I look in the things I have and the people I love I shouldn't be like that! What am I supposed to do? What is missing? And then I remember all the movies where the couple is happily together HAHAHAHAHHAH is sad you know.

I, like a lot of people, want to find mi other half HAHAHAAHHAHAA but is difficult... PRETTY DIFFICULT. Buttttttttttt what can I do!?  Just sit there and hope he comes after me one day...? (IT'S NOT A BAD IDEA :P ) HAHAH well I should just look and keep my eyes wide open because maybe he's in front of me and I didn't even look at him.

BEING LOVED AND NOT LOVE IN RETURN...

Well..... You already read the title.... I am in that situation right now :D

Have you ever wondered what's worst,... saying nothing and wishing you had... or saying something and wishing you hadn't ?.. what hurts the most?

Well... there's this guy .. my friend. That likes me but I don't like him or love him... I only see him as a friend YEP TYPICAL... Well I only were in that situation once before and it was easy because the guy wasn't a close friend of mine but, in this situation is different I PROMISE Y DID CONSIDER being with him but he is pretty different to me, he doesn't know what to say when he's with me... I CAN NOTICE... and that's uncomfortable you know..

This guy is a football player and singer, he likes classic music and he is a nice guy. The problem here is that snce I met him he became my friend... maybe not a very close friend but he is important and I would feel guilty if I make a friend suffer because of me. I know is the same story that repeats everyday with everyone. Love and not being loved in return.... but I mean why cannot it be as easy as "Hey I don't love you.. move on fall in love with another girl" WHY? because is love... -.- that pretty funny thing that we all search and hide from. We love everyday and we are loved everyday but for the most of people the love of friends and family isn't enough. I mean we always look for that guy from the movie who falls in love have some troubles and finally ends happily with a woman and they have children and die together.... BUT the movies can represent ALL our dreams but it is not that easy in real life. I mean what chances do we have to find a person who loves us and never let us go? Can anyone tell me that!? First of all... guys you always look the outside of the box before looking on what's inside it! We, girls maybe do the same but we take the chance, in more cases than you, to know you even if you're not Brad Pitt hahaha. The point here is that I hate it when someone finds beauty in you.... when someone realizes that you are different from the others... that you're an amazing person but you don't feel the same way... I mean I do know that and I do see that in him but I wouldn't like him as my boyfriend..... I am pretty weird in that stuff. I can't fall in love with any of my friends is something that never happens or I never let it happen... but when someone comes to me with the full purpose of flirting with me is more the chance for him to get me. Another thing I like to say if a man is reading this.... HEY! YOU MEN! WHY THE HELL ARE MOSTLY OF YOU SO SHYYYYYY!? It doesn't work I swear. Why do we girls have to reach the point in which we have to ask you to go out! COME ON! Eat some eggs at breakfast and TRY TO TALK TO THE ONE YOU LOVE, ASK HER OUT!.. IDK GIVE HER SOME SIGNS THAT YOU LOVE HER. I mean what do you have to loose? In the theme of these speech I am talking about loveing and not being loved in return but the point is that if you love and they don't love you F**K THEM (: I mean they are loosing you, you're better without that people HAHAHAHAH okey not... jk Just get over it and go on with your life remember that if one door is closed two others will open you just have to look for them! Scream in the air how you feel but with respect :) Say nice things to others because later they will do the same :) Talk to that person you're attracted too she/he won't be able to escape or ignore you HAHA Live everyday as if  you're going to die tomorrow and enjoy all the little things life gives to you because at he end they're the ones that count the most.

SO..... I DON'T LOVE ANYONE BUT I WANT TO FIND MY PRINCE CHARMING JUST LIKE EVERY GIRL IN THE WORLD HAHAHA but if one guy likes me and I don't like him I don't have to make him waste his time thinking about me.... when he can meet the love of his life.


THIS IS RANDOM I KNOW... SO GET USED TO IT


BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ;D

A Christmas gift.

Yep I cried... why? because a simple but ridiculous reason... My brother is going to stay 1 week away from me :$ I will tell you a story. It's a story I like to tell :) 

In Christmas 8 years ago moreless.. I was writting my letter to Santa Claus and I wrote "Santa please bring me a puppy or a brother/sister" and TARA! My mommy got pregned... I wanted a puppy -.- AHHAHAH just kidding I was pretty excited :) And when finally my brother born, I was exploding of joy. We grrew together filled with love and we bothered each other as brothers do but in the end we hugged each other and we were never apart. When I cry he is there to tell me he doesn't want me to cry anymore, when I am disappointed he says something silly and makes me laugh :') when I am happy he enjoys my prescense and it's awesome how much you can love a single person. I take care of him everyday, I help him fight against life, I tell him what's wrong and what's not and I am his model to follow. I have a big responsability but I enjoy it EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE. I can tell you with honestly he is the person, thing, etc... that I love the most in the world. I sincerely say that he changed my life and improved it bye 1 million. And without him I would be more alone...

He is not like all the boys, he has problems because my parents are separated so he grew in a kind of tense atmosphere... when he heard people screaming he became upset... and sometimes while he is eating he says he sees figures in the food and he gets scared. But I will be there for him until the end as he has been for me all these years...

I am about to cry again... AHAHHA shit... hahahahah :P but what can I do? In love you suffer and you enjoy and well we'll be far away one from the other but I know we'll be okay....

Iloveyoumychampion....my brother <3

Can I rescue you?

I was just sitting there... watching people dancing beacuse I didn't like that music and friend was gone. I was alone while my dad, his gf and my brother were dancing... hahah xD But I was just watching, laughing... thinking. Since I arrived the city I was hoping to find new people but specifically a new guy. Yep, hahahaha a new guy. And there he was... approaching to me, he said: "may I sit?" and I answered yes :3 he started eating and I was just there in a one-chair distance of him. Then I asked him if he liked the food... his plate was almost empty hhaha and he told me that he didn't like cream and I was like.... okaaaay? AHAHAHAH but then I just kept silent and he started a conversation. c:  He was sooo sweet, so nice, but so empty inside. I remember one day a friend told me that I can easily make someone tell me everything about him including his past. I remember that. So, I discover that I was about to kissing him beacuse we were so close each other becauseeeeeee we were in a party with a lot of noise so we were whispering each other in the ear.... I mean SCREAMING hahah so we could listen ourselves. But my dad was in front so nothing happened. We made a click and I made him smile a lot, I discovered that he was in drugs, he smoked, he drank a lot but all that beacuse he was trying to fill his heart, his soul.... with pleasure, a pleasure that love can give a person... with just a simple: smile or hug. The most common reason, in my opinion, people get in that sutff is because they want to fill theirselves. Well at the end I was just about to leave and he gave me his face HAHAHAH and i'm not talking about a part of his body ... :P He left footprints... but I don't know, I mean I would like to know him more but it has its risks. I don't want hin to fall in love with me if I'm not pretty sure if I would want to be with someone who hurts himself with all that stuff..... and that's only a simple question..... are you able to drop everything you are taking for another chance to fill yourself? to be loved? to be happy..?

I mean.... are you able to change just for your well-being? or for me?

Can I rescue you?

Guys:

You guys, don't know everything we, girls, do for you. You, guys, don't know that we, girls, find everything related to you. Lyrics, quotes, movies - everything. You, guys, don't know that we, girls feel when you say you've got to go, and the "Goodbye part" begins. You, guys, have no idea of how many fights we, girls, could have had with our parents or friends just to go out or talk to you. You, guys, don't know that we, girls, walk a little faster or take different ways at school just to makeit an accidentally way to say "Hi". You guys, don't know that we, girls, can talk about you with anyone and not get bored. You, guys, don't know how we girls, can find lovely and cute EVERY SINGLE DETAIL OF YOU. You, guys, won't ever know how, we, girls, feel just when we see you smiling... even if we are not the reason. You, guys, don't know why we, girls, try to hide our feelings with you. You, guys, have no idea of how much we, girls, would give up or leave behind for you. You, guys, won't ever know how we, girls, could have passed through tears and pain, just to be okay with you. You, guys, won't ever understand why we, girls, are so complicated... well it's because of you, guys. You, guys, have no idea of how much we, girls, love you.

We, girls, feel identified with all this.. and it's all beacuse of you, guys.

Vases

Vases? Yeah, vases. I think every person has its own vase, a vase with a little of something... it's like love, like self-esteem, like something they need to be complete, to be happy. And friendship helps a lot to get our vases full. If I have a friend who cares about me, likes the way I am, a friend who listens, a friend I can trust... It's like my vase has idk 20% of liquid :P my friend keeps giving me 2% everytime he/she helps me with something or is there when anybody is. I think that a friend .. a real friend is a treasure we can find hardly, and when we find it we should take care of it because is more valuable than gold. I am a person who likes to give the people 1% to their vases everyday with a smile, a hug, an "I'll be there for you when you need me", etc. And when yo do that you'll be rewarded. I believe in karma and I believe that the more you share the more people give to you and is not exactly immediately, but it happens. It's the same in love when you find that person who makes you happy, that person can fill your vase in 1 week. But it's hard to find that person who likes been filled and filling and the same time... but not impossible.

Go on fill vases and you'll find yourself more happy because giving happiness to others gives happiness to yourself at the same time :)

You're original just because you are: YOU. <3

Work

Helloooooooooooow! :) I'm back haha I feel better about the arm :3 and I decided to write today about WORK.
When you are about to choose a work my daddy told me that you have to consider 3 aspects and you'll succeed in it.

1. Ask yourself,. "What do I like to do?"
2."What am I good at?"
3. "Where do I work?"

First you have to think about what do YOU want... what makes you happy... what you'll love to do for the rest of your life. Then you have to think if you're good at it because you can't work as a singer, if you love dancing and you don't dance good. And finally for the grown ups haha if you're actually working at ... as an example: doctor, you have to think if you're happy with that and you're doing something you don't like. In my case I love singing, I sing good and I am in a band so I'm in the right way to the success :)

Sometimes it's pretty difficult to choose a job but this will help you. In the other hand I want to talk about reward....

We often wait for a "Good Job" when we do something good but we are expecting a "You did it wrong again!" when we do something... wrong :P hahaha but we don't want to so we try and try and try to make it better next time until we realize that sometimes our effort is not rewarded.... but I want to tell you something it... you DO receive a reward to yourself even if you don't think is enough it is... it's like doing things right ... it's the same if someone is stealing and you don't you feel good with yourself or YOU SHOULD! even if there is no one who tells you "OH, you're such a good person :0" NOOOOOOOO! you know it! because everything you do you'll know it, you can cheat everyone but you. So, if you're going to work on something do it entirely for you... because you'll be always rewarded with satisfaction.

Writing with the left hand

Oh yeah... i am writing with my left hand.... why? it's a funny story for me :)

Yesterday I went to a swimming pool and I wanted my cousin get into it. I chased her around the pool and then she got into the bathroom and closed the door. I came back for her and I saw she was opening slowly the door so I ran and pushed and BAM! The glass of the window broke up... when I looked at my arm I saw the dermis ( the second layer of the skin) and it was bleeding ._. but I was like Andrea! (my cousin) are you okay!? and she only cut in the finger and toe. So she screamed to me: "GO FOR HELP, RUN! SEE YOU ARM FOR GOD'S SAKE!"So I went to my father and he got nervous and mad and Marisa (my daddy's girlfriend haha) said we had to go to the hospital and luckily it was beside the pool. We arrived there and everyone was scary but me ... I can't believe that I was more worried about my cousin than me xD
The doctor gave me 20 stitches HAHAHAHA! It was very deep. After that the doctor gave me a shot and more are waiting and well I have bandages all around my right arm and finger :P

AND I'M WRITING WITH MY LEFT HAND.


P.D. If your parents told you to stop playing ... LISTEN TO THEM :)

Afraid

We are not afraid of love, we are afraid of rejection.
Afraid to hear the word goodbye instead of feeling affection. 
Afraid that what we do is never enough. 
Afraid that we may experience one-sided love.
Afraid of wasting years. 
Afraid of shedding tears.
Afraid that our heart may shatter into a million pieces of pain. 
Afraid that we'll never be the same. 
Afraid of hearing surprising confessions. 
Afraid of unanswered questions. 
Afraid of being unsure. 
Afraid of losing something we worked so hard for.


We are afraid... 
But we shouldn't because we have a lot of reasons of not being afraid.
We have family so we won't be alone, we have friends that will be there for us, we have food to eat everyday; we have eyes to see,legs to walk, mouth to talk, lungs to breath and heart to love. And for every broken heart will be 100 smiles. For every person dying there are100 babies borning I mean it's my opinion that there's more joy en in the world than sorrow. 


Don't be afraid...

Deceptions

Oh yeah I'm going to talk about deceptions. I received all kind of deceptions in my life mostly of my friends. You can tell that if a person keeps disappointing you that person won't be your friend... Well it's complicated. Everyone will disappoint us someday. Everyone. But we have to find the strength to keep on the road... to move on ... to forget it. But forget it is just a way to say it I better say forgive it. Everyone deserves forgiveness. Everyone. But I know it's not easy sometimes. I mean after more than 100 deceptions you get used to them. But not because you want them or something like that.... beacuse you learn to focus in the good parts of your life and let them stay behind.

You can't have everything you want from others beacuse you don't manipulate them or something. You just have to take the good parts of everything. I have a problem... people often do things without including me but I'm not talking about parties I'm talking about APRECIATION. People giving you thanks of what you did for them. It's hard to get I think but everything I do for others I do it with sincere love and without expecting anything in reward but a THANKS. Sometimes I cheat myself and I am waiting for others to include me in their notes or I don't know... it's hard to explain.

But what I do know is that for every deception I get there's another achievemnt I make such as a new friend, a step closer to my dreams, meeting a great person or having a huge hug, seeing an old friend or getting good grades. I mean for every negative thing in earth there's 5 positive ones but you have to look for them.

Awesome

It's Awesome how much love can change a person's life right? It's like you met someone who fills your expectations and everything can go just perfect and then after a while everything is worse than never. It's awesome the power that love has in ourselves it can either destroy or revive us. Love can etiher make us feel the most wonderful person on earth and most special too or make us feel like nothjing... like dust in the wind. But anyways you receive love everyday :) from a lot of people and maybe you didn't notice that. It's not the end of the world if someone doesn't love you or if you don't find your another half haha. You have plenty of life to look for it and remember if something doesn't stay in your present it's because it shouldn't. I believe in destiny and more than anything I believe that we all have everything to a beautiful life! Go on and smile never give up... chase your dreams :)